Soooo.... My health has all gone to hell.

1. My depression has reached all new levels. I can't get the energy to do anything any more, I can't talk to what little friends I have left, I can't conjure up the mental energy to participate here on the boards these days, I keep getting repetetive fantasies about different suicide methods. Sometimes my own mind frightenes me because occasionally, I take those suicidal thoughts much too seriously.
I got myself scheduled to see a psychiatrist, but with the wonders of all-socialized medicine I still have to wait another month yet before I get in.
Oh, and the social isolation was driving me to mental breakdown so I've decided to reject completely the notion of having friends or relationships. I know that doesn't sound healthy on the surface, but longing for what I now realized I'll never have just caused unecessary suffering.

2. Pain levels have reached all-new heights too. It's like the pain of being electrocuted, except not a sudden jolt, throughout every nerve in my body (especially my arms). Yesterday I sneezed and it sent such intense pain to my right arm that I was curled up on the floor clenching my teeth barely gritting through it.



That being said, I have two questions. I'd like to get better, start being successful again, and start participating here as I've done for the past 3 years. I really can't wait a month till I see the psychiatrist. I'm as "up" as is possible for me right now, enough to seek solutions. I'm afraid I might hit an extreme low in the near future and off myself, so I need to do something soon. No, you won't see any dramatic/emo "I'm going to end it all!!!" posts from me, it's really not my style.


So...

Question One:

About the pain. The doc's switched me to oxycontin but it's still not doing a very good job. I really wish I could use cannabis for it, but in the last year weed (for some reason) hugely increases the pain when I smoke it. I told this to my mom yesterday and she suggested we try cooking and eating it.
I know from some studies I've read that cannabinoids can strongly potentiate the antinociseptic effects of opioid analgesics, which got me thinking; when you eat cannabis it tends to provide more of a body high. One pain specialist I wrote suggested that the head high from cannabis, caused by a large dopamine release, may be responsible for the increase in pain because it causes a rapid dopamine reuptake. So maybe by eating it, I could surpass most of the head-high and only get the body effects and accompanying painkilling.

Does this sound like a viable theory? I don't want to jump on it right off the bat because I know eating cannabis, especially if I mismeasure it, can be pretty intense; and I don't want to be sent into unbearable 8-hour long pain.
So I have't smoked in about 3 months (except one time a week ago, same experience) and my tolerance should be pretty low. Anybody know how much cannabis I should use for a single low-moderate dose? I figure I'll cook it into a brownie or something.

and

Question 2:

Just wondering if anybody knows some good body detox methods. I was reading that body toxicity can be responsible for a lot of disease and aggrivation of disease. I've done little research so I can't vouch for the theory, but I figure it's worth a shot.
Gandalf_The_Grey Reviewed by Gandalf_The_Grey on . depression, chronic pain, and two subjects of approach: advice please Soooo.... My health has all gone to hell. 1. My depression has reached all new levels. I can't get the energy to do anything any more, I can't talk to what little friends I have left, I can't conjure up the mental energy to participate here on the boards these days, I keep getting repetetive fantasies about different suicide methods. Sometimes my own mind frightenes me because occasionally, I take those suicidal thoughts much too seriously. I got myself scheduled to see a psychiatrist, Rating: 5