i mean it wasnt my first time smoking. i smoked at least 20 times before this happened. the high that time felt like crack, cuz my heart was way more rapid than usual and i started getting warm and cold in my arms and legs. the weird physical effects combined with the paranoia of getting caught enhanced my anxiety and i had a panic attack. trust me no one wants to go through that. by the way when i meant ill just drink to relax, i meant the occasional few beers, not a crazy fucking alcoholic. but i appreciate all the advice. im gonna take a long break from marijuana to because im going to moving on campus in college and need to focus on my shit. but i cant see the harm in smoking occasionally.again, thanks for all the advice