Thanks for your reply!

I've smoked a handful of times in college, with friends, but really I wouldn't be a massive fan of recreational smoking - simply because on a 'fun' level the stuff I've smoked has only really made me feel tired or nothing at all - i suspect what i was smoking was very poor quality.

I feel that if I could overcome the muscle clench a couple of times even with 'artificial' help it would allow me to relax during regular sex by showing me that penetration is possible..