Looking Ahead To Hell

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hey beachguy i know how you feel man, i have extreme discomfort on my left lower side and center of my spine, its probly from cracking my back for years but now if i dont it will hurt to the point of tears unless i crack it.

some days im so stiff if i dont smoke some herb i will never relax and mhy back will ache for hours, makes matters worse when i dont have health insurance either so i have to deal with it as doctor bills would cripple my income.

gotta love the USA, smoke herb to feel better and go to jail, yet take pills get addicted and thats ok.....right.....

[beachguy in thongs]

My Father wasn't much a part of my life as I grew up. Now, as a double heart-attack victim, with diabetes, I carry his groceries to his third-floor apartment, every week. He, in turn, buys me groceries (my girlfriend works at McDonald's, we're too rich for Food Stamps).

He went to my nephews' baseball games, at a group of fields with a gravel/dirt parking lot. As he exited his car, his shoe became lodged in between his accelerator and the floor. There were two games, for both of my nephews. During the second one, at a different field from the first, someone noticed that my Father didn't have a shoe. After looking all around for it, my Mother (they're divorced) found his shoe under his gas pedal.

This sixty-five year old man, so hyped up on pills, had the power to walk across rocks without feeling a thing. And, then these people drive around in cars.

God damn!

Thanks for replying, everyone. This place makes me smile and laugh.

[beachguy in thongs]

It may sound new age-y but I really believe in the correlation between types of thinking and brain response. They say the right half controls certain aspects of our personality and the left as well, one side sees a pile a fruit and veggies, the other side sees a portrait of a person, when in reality the picture is a portrait made of fruit and veggies.

If you can, try to research and develop some activities that you think stimulate the damaged part of your brain, trust me I know its hard to use your brain when it's the part that's damaged and it may feel like a Catch 22 where you need to be able to use your brain completely in order to heal it, but they know now that brain cells regenerate. But they don't have a good grasp on what makes it do this, from personal experience it comes from exercising your brain and learning new things. It may seem far fetched but new information you gain is directly related to brain growth.

Learning a new language at an older age has been proven to reduce the effects of and onset of diseases like Alzheimer's and other degenerative brain disorders that mostly occur as a result of aging.

Im not sure so please double check but I think left hemi = subjective and right hemi = objective. (put much more colorfully but real professionals) so a good thing to start with might be reading fiction, good fiction i might add. Hell even going back and watching all your favorite movies might help strengthen neural pathways that are in decline.

If you haven't already (i think i remember you saying you have a long while ago) go check out Kurt Vonnegut, read his books and try to absorb as much of it as possible, i think it will help due to the satire, humor and depth of his books, cat's cradle and slaughterhouse-five in particular. Sirens of titan is good, as are most of his stuff. And if you don't like full books, get Welcome to the Monkey House, which is a bunch of amazing short stories.

I hope you enjoy.


Anyways I digress, and I wish nothing but the best of luck to you, and offer all the encouragement i can; it must be tough living with a brain condition like yours so try not to let it drag you down into depression and stagnation because these are tantamount to giving up.

Much respect,
Sam

Thanks, a lot. The method that you're suggesting is similar to what I've been doing. The past thirteen years have been the most educational ever. Not only did I learn how to do the simple tasks, all over again, but, I re-learned what I knew by teaching others at the same time as teaching myself.

It's funny, because my senior thesis, in high school, was about how music correlates to each cerebral hemisphere. I can only remember standing in the library, and that was my thesis.

I read a couple of Isaac Asimov books, after the coma. Celestine Prophecy was another one that my sister sent me. A couple of Stephen King books. You've almost described what my life has been like, since.

I wanted to learn some Italian, from an older man, who partly-owned a restaurant that I worked for. He taught me how to say, "You're the most beautiful girl a man has ever met (or, seen)", in a Northern Italian diallect.

Kurt Vonnegut's name escapes me, but, in sixth grade, I did have a game for my computer, called "Mines of Titan", and, I had pictures of Titan as my avatar.