I'm pulling through the stage your in right now, not that it is the reason for my user name or yours, but I would recommend smoking some bud, listen to some music, and think about how you came to the present. Imagine the events in your life that caused you to become the given person before consciousness. The art of thought should never be underestimated, the more you think the better you understand yourself, thereby stepping forward to improve your mental health and life.