Damn man... reading what happened to you i understand how you feel... what a tide of bad luck... its no wonder that youre having such evil thoughts... ive passed by a lot of bad things also, and they shaped me into the thing im now... i already had (and have yet) many dark end evil thoughts too... i used to indulge in such thoughts, as they are rather pleasurable... (oh yes... they are...:vader1 and today, when things arent alright, i still indulge in this thoughts... anyway... i treat them all as mere thoughts (cause its all what they are), and dont give much importance to them... i use them as a way to release the anger... but after have thought all evilness i wish, i leave them... even cause its a bit hard keep evil thoughts for long when the smoke goes to the head and you feel good... :rastasmoke:
Anyway... if youre passing through a hard time, if you want a new view of life, i advise to read this:

Carlos Castaneda's don Juan's Teachings

This teachings (combined with the weed) actually changed my life... my view of world... everything... before read it i was passing through a hard time (much like you), was a bit depressed (not much cause weed never let me down), hadnt any hope, any goals... then i did read, understood, and now im a new person... so i advise to everybody to read it... its a great well of wisdom.
There is also some quotes from there in this link:

http://boards.cannabis.com/philosoph...ml#post1634023

So you can see how it is...
And at least... right now i havnt any dark thoughts to share... but when i remember some (i have plenty of them) i will post it here.

"Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now hes gone"
Coelho Reviewed by Coelho on . Fade to black I wanted to share my thoughts on the main black ideas that ones mind can have. Everyone has one day or another some dark thoughts that just keeps pourring and pourring untill something good happens or... well until it goes directly to suicide, murder or insanity after the mind is saturated by those thoughts. Now, what are those dark thoughts, how and why do the come to mind and is there a way to counter them? First, here are some dark thoughts :( that I had and some that remains: humans Rating: 5