Quote Originally Posted by geonagual
Hello:jointsmile:
I am not sure if I have any definitive answer, maybe just a few thoughts.
You definitely need to get back to work..the more idle you become, the more idle you become..if you know what I mean..
You need to talk to some old friends...make some new ones..something..you need someone to hang out with, get stoned and go do something cool with...why dont you want friends?
I know I feel like my mind is going to mush, but not quite. I think its still quite sharp. Anyway, I don't want friends well because it may be because every time I made an emotional attachment to friends, they either leave me (over some flaw I may or may not have or arguments) or back stab me. Maybe I've gotten used to the fact this is what friends do and since I don't like it I don't deal with it so that way I'm happy not constantly thinking about why they are leaving me or why they've done things to me. but I'm definitely not bitter about it.

Quote Originally Posted by Narf!
I have recently gone through the exact same thing. Sometimes in life, you have to lose yourself, so you can find yourself again. You are exercizing every day and taking care of yourself. That is the best thing you can do right now. You might try to find a job that really interests you. Not something in the traditional sense of a career path. Not everyone that is a millionaire is a success. Alot of them are failures, but they have become trapped by their "things." Mortgages, loveless marriges, car payments etc. And have to continue down a fruitless path so everyone else percieves them to be "successful." You might consider volunteering for a charity. Take some classes at a community college that interest you, but dont necessacarily have to do with a career.
The worst thing about not having a job is "Where do you work?" I have figured out alot of people "Are what they do for a living." but not much else. They have no life or interests outside of their job. That sucks. Try asking them who they would be without a job. Most times you will get that deer in the headlights look. You're doing well for yourself without a job. For me I got tired of being bored so I finally got a job myself.
Thats exactly what I don't want to be. Very relatible though, thats me, for sure. You hit it smack dab on the nose, Narf.

All this makes me realize Finding passion is really hard. Its like finding a needle in a haystack! Impossible!

And thats me in a nutshell.

Lots of great advice I definitely feel less alone knowing other people go through the exact same thing. Lots of love to you guys, Lots of it.