so yeah....

[geonagual]

You wanna know something wierd..I dont even know the anniversary of my moms death this year..it was either Jan or Feb..I am sure I could research my threads and find it..
With my mom, it almost feels like I havent really dealt with it..who knows, maybe it will come down like a ton of bricks on me one of these days.

[slipknotpsycho]

You wanna know something wierd..I dont even know the anniversary of my moms death this year..it was either Jan or Feb..I am sure I could research my threads and find it..
With my mom, it almost feels like I havent really dealt with it..who knows, maybe it will come down like a ton of bricks on me one of these days.

it probably will.... i compltely ignored the fact he was dead... then came his viewing... and it all hit me... i still hate my nana for making me go up to that casket.. i'm sure some day i will be grateful for her making me go up there, as it has started me on the track of accepting it... but as of right now i still haven't forgiven her... i told her i wasn't strong enough and she dragged me up there anyways...

don't feel bad either, i don't know the date of his death either... i know about when it was but i never can remember the exact date... all i can remember is it was sometime in mid september... he was just 2 months shy of his 18th or 19th birthday. i can't remember that either

[MadSativa]

yesterday was my brother's birthday (the one who was killed)... it's been so long i expected to atleast kinda forget about it and move on... but nope =/ life had other plans....

so honestly, will it ever pass? does anyone know? i'm sure plenty of people here have been through that, and probably for lots longer then i have (3 years now..)

did it ever pass? i don't mean forgetting them, or not caring they're gone, i'm not stupid enough to think that would happen for any reason... just, anyone who's went through it for many many years, did it ever subside, at all? or does that thought still seem to haunt your mind constantly?

huh.......I had a brother taken too. I knew you and me was simular some how slip. .................................................. ..Respect

[ijustloveweed]

My dad passed away when i was 11 , but i wasn't really close to him since my parents divorced when i was in 1st or 2nd grade, i barely saw him and I've never been really depressed about it or anything, yeah i cried when i heard of it but being depressed never really happened

[birdgirl73]

You wanna know something wierd..I dont even know the anniversary of my moms death this year..it was either Jan or Feb..I am sure I could research my threads and find it..
With my mom, it almost feels like I havent really dealt with it..who knows, maybe it will come down like a ton of bricks on me one of these days.

It was February 11, Geo. I had it in my PMs because P4B drew my attention to your post at the time, and I've kept it in there, just like I kept the note I sent to him when my sister died. Hope it's OK that I told you. Anniversaries and dates of big life events have meaning for me. And if it feels like you haven't dealt with it, it's probably just because you're dealing with it as you can. I feel like I've "dealt" with Bess's death all year, feeling it, writing about it, grieving, talking, etc. But that hasn't fundamentally changed anything in my own acceptance or psychological state. I still feel just as sad as I did right after it happened, only it's a bit more distant now.

[geonagual]

Thanks BG...the whole death thing does suck...its the worst thing that happens to us in this life...

[potsmokingnome]

It still hits me hard sometimes when I think of My Mom, that died when i was 10 years old. But for the most part I accept it for what it is, a aprt of my life, and it has made me who I am today. The pain does subside, but it does come back from time to time Slip. My Mom was in so much emotional pain when she was alive in the end, and thought that her only way out was death itself. that was her choice and now 20 years later I accept it for what it is. It didn't take me 20 years to realize this, but the better part of 10 years. Only time will tell Slip, but the pain will subside, One day you will start focusing more on the postive memories though, and not the whole negative effect of your brothers death, on your life. Time is an amazing thing...