I have been thinking about it a lot, and I think one reason I have so much trouble breaking from friendship into romance is that all my experiences growing up where genitals were involved have been very unpleasant for me. My first genital contact with other people started around six years of age and I didn't know anything the hell about it... so I tried it on another kid thinking it was just games kids play and... well... it sucked to be me when an adult walked in... then later whoever came in last at footraces had to rim the winner... and I was the fat kid... total lack of supervision during playtime... then a babysitter would go shopping and leave her miscreant teenager to watch all us kids... then a friend of my sisters said she would scream rape if I didn't rub her vulva with my penis, then afterward she told me I got her pregnant and I was too naive to know better... uhh... do you guys think I can break my barriers without psychiatric help? I'm afraid of shrinks, plus I am dead broke. And do you think this stuff is what's blocking me from getting with anyone? I know the acquaintances here are very casual and everyone wants to just enjoy this board or whatever, but I am soooo lonely please tell me anything you think may be helpful. Thanks. And several of you I probably won't be able to rep yet, just letting you know in advance.
JD1stTimer Reviewed by JD1stTimer on . Emotional baggage I have been thinking about it a lot, and I think one reason I have so much trouble breaking from friendship into romance is that all my experiences growing up where genitals were involved have been very unpleasant for me. My first genital contact with other people started around six years of age and I didn't know anything the hell about it... so I tried it on another kid thinking it was just games kids play and... well... it sucked to be me when an adult walked in... then later whoever came in Rating: 5