Hey Budha,
I give you credit for courage,its really scary and risky opening your heart,allowing your self to be vulnerable.I think its easy for others to say your thinking with your lower extremity and not your heart,or dont tell someone you love them first.Most of these folks are scared of being vulnerable and I dont blame them,because youve just given someone the power now if they dont feel the same way to manipulate and use you,its scary as hell.You know whats in your heart,but dont let it over rule your common sense.If you think she is leading you on and that there will probably never be a relationship,well... trust your instincts.All the power,passion,love in a relationship needs to be equally distributed and not all one side.I truly hope things work out for you,but it sounds like she isnt or wont be reciprocal in her feelings for you,good luck my friend,take care,be well,and most of all be safe.