Sorry to read of your hell BGIT!!!! I can relate on many levels being disabled myself. As far as the growing goes, think of this: The money spent on lights/etc. would be less than what you spend on bud now. Plus you can grow what you need for your medicating purposses as opposed to having to buy what's available. You do not need a ton of space to do small personal grows, actually very little room is needed. I may be able to help you get started as I have tons of expereince with micro grows. The initial investment can be as little as you want as you can add on later.
I hope things get better for ya fast BGIT, I hate to see this.:hippy::rasta: