Thanks, everyone. I tried moving last November, but, it was too hard on me financially. I made it four months and never got a chance to see a doctor whom I was advised to see. It's not like I traveled to the neighboring state, no. I flip my world upside down and move half way across the country on my credit card, pay for rent on my credit card, and, even took out 12-25% cash advances just to get a small bag of herb. I'm slowly ruining my life, and, I like it better this way because I'm the only one that I can blame. If I wanted to, I could be jovial and love-spreading, but, because I can't look past what has happened to me, I let myself down.

My niece's birthday party is tomorrow night and I'm afraid to go. I have to deal with the fight of my life, all day, and, then go over to my brother's for my 11-year-old niece's birthday and cake/ice cream. I can't slap a sign on my head saying that I'm now an invalid, please excuse me.

And I made a mistake of getting a girlfriend who needs my help in her life. Who am I to think that I can help someone?

r0k, I'll have to look into your answer. I did contact a lawyer, who said that he was no longer involved, but, I was given two more to contact; never received feedback from either (both were in California).

I have never discussed my case with a lawyer. I can't afford one, so the only possible way is if someone takes my case for "human interest and concern" only. I feel that God played a joke on me. Or, maybe the joke's on the world. Either way, I feel it.

"There's nothing more I can do for you."
"Other than that, there's nothing more I can do for you."
"Well, hang in there."
"Why would you want to leave Virginia?"

The first three statements were from doctors. The fourth was from Michael Krawitz, of N.O.R.M.L.