Bitch.

So for 1 year and 3 months I have endured what any dude would call hell. I mean my friends have told me, my mom has said it indirectly and so forth. I'm sure I don't make it easy for her either in some ways.

Backdrop: She has been my first serious relationship never have I ever felt like this for ANY OTHER girl in my life. First REAL kiss, first fuck, first eevveerryythhiinngg imaginable.

At first our fights were over me smoking weed, and lying about it. You can say that was a dickish thing to do and if I really wanted to smoke weed I shouldn't have been with her and lying was wrong. But I felt like I loved her alot, she made me really happy, and a little weed smoking with a buddy every now and then didn't hurt anything. Well that was ALOT of BRUTAL fights and eventually I just sort of quit. I would go on monthly stretches without smoking weed. Then we both graduate, she goes up to NY to visit her dad (mom pretty much abandoned her) promised she would come back get a job and we would get an apartment. Make a long story short she decided to stay up there and started pushing me away. I got ready for the break up I started planning a future without her, sure it hurt but I was preparing myself for the worse. This goes on for a week of her pushing me away, and me feeling like she wants to move on, many nights crying feeling sad. Then when i'm ready to move on and I stop calling she calls me and just drops all this on me i want to be with you blah blah blah alllllll that jazz. So then she comes and visits, we fight about me smoking weed again, but then she smokes with me and she gets over weed.

Now this is the same girl I caught dancing all slutty with some other guy if you guys remember that thread and I was strong enough to get over that and see hte bigger picture which was just being with her. Now I want to just go to this fucking show for one night and she's flipping out saying I'm not going to talk to you if you go, we'll probably break up blah blah this whole fucking guilt trip. Normally that works on me but not after I saw those pictures of her dancing with that guy. I tell her if shes willing to break up over me going to a show then we weren't really worth it. I just got a job this morning and have yet to start working until next weekened. Shes saying "I have a job, i'm working and saving money to move back down there, you're not taking us seriously by going to this show, i'm not talking to you". To me thats her being a straight up bitch. because if I had a laxed g/f or someone who wasn't SUCH A BITCH it wouldn't be a problem now would it? People have told me long distant relationships don't work, and its not good if we always fight but for some reason I have really strong feelings about her. But I just see things going downhill from here on out. I used to be able to not fathom the fact she would be happy with some other guy but the more i think about it and stay in this relationship its more like I would wish that guy good luck...or maybe he would just be a better b/f then me.

But I just needed to vent. Everyone older then me that reads this will probably laugh and htink i'm a silly 18 y/o with problems that won't matter in 5-10 years but...I don't know. Sorry I just wrote a book.
VoidLivesOn Reviewed by VoidLivesOn on . I'm starting to realize my g/f is a humongous Bitch. So for 1 year and 3 months I have endured what any dude would call hell. I mean my friends have told me, my mom has said it indirectly and so forth. I'm sure I don't make it easy for her either in some ways. Backdrop: She has been my first serious relationship never have I ever felt like this for ANY OTHER girl in my life. First REAL kiss, first fuck, first eevveerryythhiinngg imaginable. At first our fights were over me smoking weed, and lying about it. You can say that was a Rating: 5