paranoia to me is part of the high. when i start smoking a joint its part of the realization and of being more aware. but then although i like the monging/after effects i always get well paranoid. i never go out . i dont even show my face , i always tell myself to go out when im coming up and then a couples minutes later, im like nah i laterlly can't. if i smoke everyday for a couple of weeks ive got more used to it and can almost operate normally while cained. but the one off joint out of a quarter pulls me apart. then i kinda kid myself that i enjoyed the experience when ive recovered and feel better that ive got stoned again, cos i know it does good for me, even though its a battle.