When i said suicidal, i just felt like it it, i ddint want to do it.
see i dont have much to do in the day... i do do much with friends or anything because its too cold outside to go anywhere.... so after school im basically bored as hell. im also not doing very good in school, so basically my life is stressful and boring. it wasnt like taht before though, when id get high it was only stressful, not boring. after i stopped i was even more stressed than ever and the boringness really stood out.
though today i bought some, and now im happy. thing is, cuz its been so long i got sooooo sick. whenever id move or open my eyes, i felt deeeply sick.

it just felt like the quality of my life significantly dropped, and it felt even worse than that. but now im good for a while.