About the only person who needs to grow up in this thread is DarkFire. To even CONSIDER the thought of suicide because you can't smoke is udder absurdity. If the only thing that makes you want to live is smoking reefer, well, you need to find something, anything, else life has to offer. And there is a damn lot out there.

I'm hardly preaching to you man, hell I've been in your shoes before... I've had my slumps. And it was every bit as unenjoyable as you make it out to be, but if you'll allow me to provide some insight, I'd like to...

When you take a look at your life, and get depressed and want to take it away, step back. Just stop, and step back and take a look at your life as a whole. Maybe it does suck right now, maybe its god-awful. But is there any hope to mold your life into something you'd like? Sure it may be difficult, and it may take time, but you know what, the best things in life don't come so easily (to quote a Lynyrd Skynyrd song). Find something to work for. And get going! You've only one way to go, up

Yeah man, I know how it feels to need herb to survive... And I know how it feels to kick that addiction too, so trust me when I say life is better when herb is there for pleasure not survival