Quote Originally Posted by RESiNATE
When I was younger, I didn't really understand about depression - I just thought that it was as much about attention seeking, as it was about emotional content.
Yet, during the past 4 years, or so, I have come to understand more about depression and how it controls a person's life.

I am depressed at the moment - so fucking depressed...

It's not always as simple as 'picking yourself up and dusting yourself off', sometimes it goes far and beyond that simplicity. It can turn you into an entirely different person to how you used to be - after a while, one forgets how one used to be...

It eats away at you, steadily destroying the essence of your character - and it becomes very difficult to claw your way back out of the hole.
Sure, you can look around and see people in a far worse senario than yours - but are we to take pleasure from that? Seems rather heartless to me, and yet, that's what people will say...

Some people feel honour-bound to struggle on with life - maybe they've got kids, and they use them as an anchor.

Depression is a personal thing - it affects people in different ways.

We live in a time where depression affects so many people that it is almost epidemic - and yet, few people think to ask themselves why...they'd rather pump the sufferer full of prozac and send them on their way.

Depression is the mental equivalent of physical pain. SO it would be logical to ask about the form and function of pain.

Pain is simply your body's way of responding to situations that are harmful to itself (ie: touching a hot stove, or jumping off a roof). The pain/pleasure response mechinism is an extremely important survival tool which acts as a barrometer of what is good for us and what is not.

It is no different with depression/happiness except than rather than physical it is mental. This means our emotions act as a barometer of the general state of our mental well being. This can be influenced by a great many things, but one of the most influential is definately how your living your life when evaluated against your moral standards. If your living life true to your beliefs in every respect then you'll find yourself quite pleasent most of the time.

If you, like me, find your life a tar pit of pointless bullshit and feel nothing but contempt for living in the suburbs with your folks when your 20 years old, well, your not going to be happy. And you shouldn't be, it would be abnormal! Am I depressed? Definately. Is it a logical depression? Absolutely. There is no doubt in my mind as to why I feel so lousy all the time, and further, there is no doubt in my mind about how to remidy this. It took me 2 years of figuring before I could grasp this basic understanding, but I have. Basically my life does not represent that which I live for. Which is definately a problem. But at this point, for me, I have little to no choice as where I want to be takes time, work, and effort to get to. Which I'm engaged in doing right now Does that in and of itself make me happy? A little... But I suspect my life will change in a big way, and for the better, once I accomplish these goals.

Just a lil philosophy from my point of view...
Buck268 Reviewed by Buck268 on . the nature of negativity every body has bad days...face it, you're not going to be a happy camper 24/7 no matter how hard you work for it. it's unpleasant... but how you handle difficult situations, choas and pure negative forces (including your own inner turmoil) is one of the most effective ways to evolve as a person. its how you deal with the bullshit on the rainy days that really make you shine. kind of ironic, isnt it? every day we face some kind of difficulties. dont back down. its your chance to Rating: 5