Heh, I didn't even realize that many people here liked me. But damn, thankyou all so much! it's good to not feel like a social outcast everywhere.


Anywhoo, the last 3 or 4 days I've been adamentaly forcing myself to meditate, for periods longer than is comfortable, in an effort to force myself to examine the corners of my mind that I didnt' want to, and maybe more importantly to break out of a very bad perception I was trapped in. I gotta say my mind's been a whole lot healthier these last few days, actually at peace.

Now I'll admit I was thinking that since I'm stable, I won't even consider the therapy unless I start to relapse emotionally. But after reading your posts I realized that being in a healthy state of mind is probably the only time I will take the initiative to do it, so I will.

In fact I was talking to a doctor today (I rarely get to see this guy, but he's fantastic) and he told me about the greatest place I had no idea existed! It's a pain-management center that has physiotherapists, pain-specialist doctors, excercise rooms, meditation, yoga, I think tai-chi, and psychologists for talk therapy. It's exactly what I wanted, a facility that hits you with every approach.
Of course it's expensive as hell, and apparently it's mostly used by national sports teams and people that are very wealthy... BUT, if my college insurance covers this (which it probably should) my parents said they're willing to pay for the rest.

Plus the doctor gave me a referral to this one guy in town that's a physiatrist who apparently specializes in chronic pain management and uses some unique, alternative approaches (I don't know what yet). But it's a long waiting list, I'm probably look at a year and a half or so.

Anywhoo, one heck of a productive day and it's SO refreshing to find a really good doctor that actively looks for solutions, not just more painkillers. I mean to disrespect to doctors in general, but of the 12 or so doctors I've tried I've only found 2 guys that actively try to fix the problem. lol, I found them both by coincidence but it turns out they're good friends, and big fans of House, my favorite television show:thumbsup:

Oh, and one more thing! I feel like a big weight is off my shoulders since I'm getting out of business and now found a diploma program that focuses entirely on writing, anthropology, and sociology; 3 things I love and am good at!
Still some big issues to take care of in life, but I'm tackling them one at a time.

Again, thankyou all so much! I shall endeavor to be possitive and productive for myself and for those I know, including and especially you all here.

'night everybody:jointsmile:
Gandalf_The_Grey Reviewed by Gandalf_The_Grey on . My sister keeps telling me to see a councilor... But I can't because I don't really know how to describe the problem. I'm going to school right now, taking business, but I'm planning on going strait into a writing course this January and dropping the business, because it turns out I hate it. Anyway, I think there's a pretty good chance I'll fail all but one of my courses right now. lol the one course I will pass is, of course, Business Communications, a writing course. The thing is, I'm not failing because I don't have the cognitive Rating: 5