Before I continue I want to clear one thing up.

You do have friends. You have us here, a few of us that known you through all your plights MrD. We may not be there for you physically, but we are there for you in heart and spirit. Perhaps we never talked all that much, but I always had a connection with who you are and your words, it affects me deeply. In some ways, we are quite similar, and when I read what you say, it mirrors the way I am like. You do have friends, and you are capable of making more.

Stop feeling sorry for yourself, and instead be who you are. Smile. Relax, and try to be comfortable with who you are. Don't believe that you have to be something else in order to have friends, in order to have sex. You have to be you.

A counselor can do some good if you find the right one. Simply someone to talk to and vent your frustrations, and help you realize the mental barriers you set upon yourself.

I know the anguish you are going through, the frustration. But don't let life pass you by feeling sorry for yourself, there's a lot of life to live. You gotta fight your mind from these negative thoughts, and inject them with good.

Don't be so hard on yourself. Smile