Well dude, I can honestly say to you that I know what its like to be in your situation and as a matter of fact I am still going through it. Feeling the way you feel is a horrible thing. You can't think about anything but that and it plagues you 24/7. I've been through it, I've attempted suicide, I've been in jail, I've had my heart crushed, I've seen a psychiatrist, drug therapist, am struggling in an engineering program that I hate, you name it and I've probably done it. When I went to see my psychiatrist i was a very nervous and skeptical just as you are. And to be honest with you, he was just another person to talk to. I still don't know if it ever made me feel better, but I always felt relieved after I left the office so even that little feeling of hope was worth it. If you just let your restrictions go and take a chance you might start feeling better. But it takes effort on your part. I'm still struggling with my life but I've done my best to try and make it better. And even if it wasn't a direct thing, what helped me to start was seeing my psychiatrist. That's when I started to turn things around and stop with the self pity. If you want things to change, you yourself have to make the changes.

Good Luck Man, I know how hard it is.....trust me, you're not alone.