What advise can anyone give you. What was said is said.

You cant take it back.

You tried to apologize.

You have done all that you can do.

Believe me, all of us here have made mistakes. It hurts and the pain is real.

But dwelling on a mistake is not going to change the situation.

I feel for you man. I have been there myself.

You made a mistake. All you can do is go on.