Quote Originally Posted by Unknown American
friendowl has it right.

Did you mean what you said in the original letter? I think you did. Were you lying in the first letter? I think you told her straight up what you felt.

You even backed down and tried to apologise for how you really feel.

Personally I would consider her dead. I am no ones doormat.

She is just a girl.

I meant it when I said it because I was horribly depressed, and delusional. None of that shit's true, she didn't maliciously go out to hurt me for no reason, we had a really really close friendship, we pretty much loved each other on a platonic basis.

"She's just a girl" doesn't make any more sense than "He's just a guy". Everybody is a guy or a girl, the personhere is somebody incredibly important to me. The simple fact of the matter is that I saw them together again and again, it kept me up for many nights, and I had hours upon hours, days upon days to twist my thoughts into something that justified how I felt. As soon as I came to my senses, stopped being in a constant state of anxiety, I realized how crazy those thoughts were.

Maybe I shouldn't have made this thread, nobody understands or has advice other than ditching her. It's not any of your fault, you all have my thanks for offering advice, I guess you just can't know not seeing the situation first hand.