Quote Originally Posted by Gandalf_The_Grey
I meant it when I said it because I was horribly depressed, and delusional. None of that shit's true, she didn't maliciously go out to hurt me for no reason, we had a really really close friendship, we pretty much loved each other on a platonic basis.

"She's just a girl" doesn't make any more sense than "He's just a guy". Everybody is a guy or a girl, the personhere is somebody incredibly important to me. The simple fact of the matter is that I saw them together again and again, it kept me up for many nights, and I had hours upon hours, days upon days to twist my thoughts into something that justified how I felt. As soon as I came to my senses, stopped being in a constant state of anxiety, I realized how crazy those thoughts were.

Maybe I shouldn't have made this thread, nobody understands or has advice other than ditching her. It's not any of your fault, you all have my thanks for offering advice, I guess you just can't know not seeing the situation first hand.
Ya know, people are right. If your friendship was as strong as you thought it was, then she would listen and forgive and tease you forever about it.

If you are up for trying again, first of all, don't write letters and actually mail them. Write to your hearts content and rip em up and burn em. KWIM? Find a quiet time and place where nobody will distract the two of you and beg for mercy.
If it's real, she'll forgive you.

A shortened version----

If you love it and it's meant to be, it will come back to thee.