I have social anxiety and general anxiety. and my problems have gotten worse since i moved to ottawa. i used to manage my problem with marijuanna. just a toke every few days or even weeks sometimes was just what i needed to, i dont know... "reset" my brain. Its just amazing what it does for me. takes me from depressed with this horrible feeling of dread within me to instant happiness and contentment with confidence that lasts for days or weeks. Since moving here and not knowing anybody i have been unable to find my medicine and it has gotten to the point that i can hardly answer the phone or the door. ive recently moved into an apartment building and i smell the stuff every night because my neighbors are smoking. this is the worst thing that i can imagine. i know just a single toke would "cure" me. but i cant even bring my self to ask someone if they can share or sell something to me. im in this horrible cycle. i cant just go and ask... and knowing its just beyond the wall is going to make me insane.. im going crazy right now.. i dont know what to do!!! omg.. ok i dont know what this is.. just a rant? its been a year and a half since ive toked! ottawa is not kind to me!!! omg i wont make it! i dont know what to do!!!!!