Thank you for reaching out for comfort. Love, or should I say the lack of love, hurts. A pain that goes beyond the normality of physicality. The feelings that were created through time which was shared and enjoyed. Is now over. Now at a stage of complete hope, will we ever get back together? We know it is over, yet can not move on as of yet. What is true happiness? Does it exist without the desire for sexual pleasure? Can you be happy without her? I believe you've been in the past and I believe you shall be again. Build your inner strength and confidence. Gain wisdom from the Kaya, true introspective knowledge, which can only be attained through everyones subjectivity. Surround yourself with friends, peace be with you.