^^ yes. ive been to rehab once before and i went for my family not for me. which is why it didnt work. you cant force someone to get better. i didnt want to get better than, it was about 2 years ago. i relapsed after about a month not even. this time i want to get better. i dont want to be how ive been anymore. ill end up dead. after that night im honestly lucky to be alive. if it wasnt for the cop that arrested me i would be, or at least rapped.


im living with the one good friend. thank god he took me in. i need someone to support me. i hope this is the right thing.

im so ashamed of myself