It's not your fault. Your parents should love you no matter WHAT you do. Your parents should back you up all the way. Don't feel bad about how your life has turned out. Your being mad on yourself. I don't know your parents but if they HATE you, then they aren't true real parents. That's not what parenthood is based on. The word hate should NOT enter their thoughts.

Stop being harsh on yourself. Look at all the positive things you have done in your life. Think of the times you got so drunk and had such a good time. Think of the time you first got high and couldn't stop laughing. Picture when you first met your buddy who's letting you stay at his. People come and go. Even people who were once 'BEST' friends. You lose friends, and others come. You think you can't be bothered with new friends or it's hard to go through 'all' that over again, getting to know people etc. But just how you met your friend now, you will meet more. This world is full of kind people. You just gotta make sure your not looking in the wrong places.

"Fall down 7 times, get up 8..."

All the best!!!! and Smile woman!!!!! :thumbsup:

And SMOKE A JOINT, please? It's times like these that weed was born for!