girlfriend?

[kronick]

im almost 20(april 10th)....and im pretty sure that ill be like this my whole life(or at least a huge chunk)...i cant explain it...but i dont think i can change my shyness, untill i get to know her that is. but the whole process starts over with every girl i meet. which isnt a lot, maybe like 6(pushing it) a year at this point in my life. unless i dont think anything will happen, then im just me...the way i should be with all women but i say a lot of dumb shit...and i dont wanna scare them away...but if i dont talk they wont wanna talk to me....CIRCLE OF DEATH I TELL YA!

[teknodppr]

but i say a lot of dumb shit...and i dont wanna scare them away...but if i dont talk they wont wanna talk to me....CIRCLE OF DEATH I TELL YA!

there is a problem there. "i dont wanna scare them away". you know how a lot of guys get a lot of girls even if they aren't really good looking? well the majority of them will tell you that the only reason why they are so successful with girls is the fact that they can take a "no" and not get all upset about it. i know where you are coming from. even now if there is a girl i like and she doesnt like me, i get kinda depressed about it. i cant control it, but just think that there are tons of other girls out there that will make you just as happy as this certain girl would. you think im good with girls?.....i havent even had a real girlfriend, ive never had sex, and ive only kissed one girl. ive probably saw about 4 girls in my life, not ever becoming their bf, but the point is that they all have made me feel the same way. i liked them all the same even though some of those girls have been way more attractive than others. i was depressed for a long time because i thought that i couldnt get girls to like me. i even took prozac for a while (actually only 2 days), only to realize that i was making this way too big of a deal. trust me there is someone out there for you and me and everyone else. it doesnt matter how many girls you date before them because once you find her, those other girls wont even exist anymore. so try and not worry about it. damn im tryin to get ur self-esteem up hopefully its workin. also i wanted to comment on you saying that they wont wanna talk to you if you dont first. thats the way it is with all guys. except if you are just a really good looking guy, then girls will talk to you first, but most of us arent. im not. if you want a relationship, you have to give so much more than what you recieve. and with the shy thing, i work at office depot so im always talkin to people i dont know. this helped me open up. sometimes i see girls i used to be terrified of that i went to school with. when i see them now, i can usually talk to them without becoming nervous. they dont say it out loud, but i know they are thinkin......."wow he sure has changed since hs".

[teknodppr]

also i might add that ive fixed some problems ive had in the past. first of all, i now realize that i have been way too needy with girls. thats probably why out of the 4 girls i was seeing, i never got into a real relationship. i also was way too nice. i mean i didnt have game. i never made fun of them or teased them so i was probably kinda a wussy to them. mabe that could have been another block too.

[kronick]

i havent even had a real girlfriend, ive never had sex, and ive only kissed one girl. ive probably saw about 4 girls in my life, not ever becoming their bf, but the point is that they all have made me feel the same way.

that pretty much sumes me up right there....except ive only hade one gf....and im pretty sure she just wanted "some"(even tho she didnt get any cause im too god damn nervious) only touched a boob....and she put my hand on it....adn kissed her(all her again)...and only her....never had sex...uh...what else is there...oh, i dont get depressed over stuff like that except this one time(well i think i was). i liked a girl and she knew it...but still made out with one of my good friends(he didnt kno i liked her) right in front of me...couldnt eat for 3 days....is that depression? usually i just accept the fact they dont like me and move on.

anywho....you did make me feel better about it...thanks! ill try to use your advise...but ill i have to leave this small town i live in first....

:P

[teknodppr]

hell ya. I live in a small town that every girl I would like to go out with has a boyfriend already. The guys out number girls by a lot. That sucks about the girl you liked. I know that i would have been sick also. I had this girl I liked dancing all nasty with some guy in front of me and touching. That kinda hurt (damn i dont know why). But theres this hot mexican girl (im white and I have a thing for them) ive been talkin 2 for like 6 months and she said that she didnt have a boyfriend, lead me on; flirted with me a lot and would always say she was busy when i asked her to hang out. I eventually found out about her bf (that she didnt say she had) and her manipulation and called her on it. Ive decided not to talk to her now (i havent seen her since I called out her bs) and I see her about 3 times a week. Im goin from being friendly and flirty to not talking to her at all. Heres how it is: if she just liked being a tease, then she wont talk to me either, but if i did mean anything to her at all, then she'll talk to me and say somethin. Im tryin to just think that she will not talk to me so ill move on. But there is still a small part of me wanting her to say she wants to hangout and be cool. But i cant let myself be afraid of her not sayin anything. Damn life sucks and girls suck. Im starting a technical school in 2 weeks. Its like 8 hr days for pretty much 2 yrs with a few weeks of breaks. Anyway ill start, get only school on my mind and forget about girls. Then I can ge a good job and move out of this damn town and go to a town with a lot of hot girls. Im talking about Seattle. I live like around 2 hrs from there. I cant wait to get outta here and get some new friends.