CC, that was my thought. But how will I know if I will marry her unless I try. I'm only 18, so the thought of marriage is way ahead here. But how else will I know. I think I'd kick myself if I never tried.

I finally "asked" so to speak. I ended up getting incredibly sick over the weekend (puking and soforth) so I decided to wait till today. So I guess my days of being single are over. I guess the reason why she didn't want to in the summer was because she thought my old location was too far away. She didn't quite realize where I lived I guess, she thought I commuted a long ways to work or something =P. It was 20 minutes from her house haha. I think I can visit every-other-weekend now that I have my car. Luckily I have friends at her college (she's in a strict dorm, no guys allowed period, with a tough RA) so I could crash with them when I visit. Unless she decides to sneak me in

I'm happy. confused at what to do, but happy =)