lol, don't worry Coelho, you're a good guy at heart . The "dark side" is easier, yes, but all it accomplishes is an indulgence in primitive emotions/instincts. The really surpass ones base nature and control the mind, rather than have the mind control you, the path of peace, clarity, and control is the way you want to go.

Meditation cultivates whatever it is you feed. That's all I can tell you.