Well I cleaned up for a job, but it didn't happen (the job I mean, not the clean up)... BUt even afterwards I decided to myself that I will not go back to smoking like I was. Just not worth it. Eighter of the good shit ($50) every third day is just too much... Especially since my car is costing an arm and a leg to get back on the road (long story short, a few repairs turned into a few modifications... which always cost more than repairs )...

Anyways I'm still unsmoked tonight (so proud) but I don't have much hope I'll remain that way longer I just want to be able to sleep like I did in high school before my neck got fucked up, and such... Really I dont know if its my matress or my neck and back or what now. I do know my neck is absolutely fucked, but I am not sure why... And it just gets more fucked from sleeping on my bed. No pillow helps some, but then my back cramps up (my lats for those who know your muscles), which is equally painful...