Quote Originally Posted by cannabis campbell
Yeah just like you I dont know what It does to other but It cant be nice I feel especially guilty If it happens when my mums around and i feel guilty as fuck afterwards.

Luckily never gotten in trouble with the police for it but it probably wont be long until I do.

I dont live with my dad anymore (he left 2 years ago) but I remember when he was small and sometimes used to take his anger out on my mum I remember one incident where he threatened me with a kitchen knife up to my face I will always remember that but he wont do anything like that now because he knows ill kill him. Once when I lose my temper I put a knife up to his throat and I've chased him down the street with a bat before now that I think back on it it was a bit scary but hilarious at the same time because I dont really like my dad and I think that was all my temper coming out plus it was because he was going through a divorce with my mum and saying things to me like "your gonna have a new mum soon" and I warned him to stop but he kept saying it haha the cunt, oh well at least I'll have his money when he dies.

Guess its just an effect of coming from a broken home me and LIP both.

When I lose my temper it seriously is like im another person and it makes me think of roid rage or something because I dont think about anything I could easily stab someone and not care or hesitate I wouldnt care if I ended up in prison I just lose it completely and while weed does help I cant be stoned 24/7 and I would be embarrased telling a doctor about this .

When im not angry i could never hurt someone - but when i loose it, like you, i could do anything. I could cut someones throat and not feel a shred of guilt, infact i'd probably laugh. THAT is what scares me afterwards.

I've hit never a woman, and wont.

I've threatened my old man so many times with knives - he used to piss me of so much i used to think about killing him. That's when i moved out and got my own place - and now i dont live with em me and my dad are both happier - but it hasnt got rid of my violence and outbursts.


Could you imagine us both walking down a street in a foul mood - people would be running for cover!