I understand how much you love him, it's so powerful it scares you. Regardless what we tell you, you're still going to do your own thing just promise to really listen to the advice that everyone is giving you. You need to do what is best for YOU, sure you love him but if you guys are really meant to be together then it will happen. You cannot force someone to be with you, and waiting around for them just wastes your time. Trust me I know what I am talking about, if he really loved you and wanted you then nothing would stop him from being with you. Im sorry that sounds so harsh but it's the truth. Go to Maui, have a new start you deserve it. It hurts now but you need to be away from him in order to get over him.