Quote Originally Posted by da dubs
ditto..my mother was a nightmare to me growing up,she is still alive at 79,,and we tolerate one another just about..its an ongoing problem trying to get over her treatment of me growing up,,but i,m dealing with it,and most importantly i treat my kids with the utmost respect,and enjoy grabbing that bit of time every day to tell them just how important they are to me,and how much i love them.. :hippy:
thats great to read, you managed to break the horrible cycle that your mother inflicted on you. One of the reasons I dont want kids is because I'm afraid I will turn into my mother. All the shit she's done, or failed to do, the shit shes said or the same, failed to say. I don't want to feel responsibe for fucking up anyone elses life, or make anyone feel uneccesary hate. I can honestly say that I don't hate my mother anymore. I have a severe dislike for her and if all goes as planned with my sis and I movin out, I hope to not have to speak to her for a long long time and I would be perfectly happy not talking to her ever again. I've thought about changin my cell number so she won't be able to contact me, but decided agains it because I know one day, hopefully in the distant future she will need us and I will talk to her and depending on what she needs I will still be there for her, because above all she is the person who gave me life, but she should not expect affection from me. Shes an extreme megalomaniac, money grabbing, evil, compulsive liar and a thief who will say and do damn near anything to get what she wants and get money in her hands, and I've told her, when you get older, and can't work, your feet get amputated, and you can no longer take care of yourself, I will find someone to do it for you, donot expect me or my sister to hang around because you are a very destructive person with bad juju hanging all over you and the people around you. I will probably go broke trying to get her as far away from me as possibe, and she will never SEE a dime from me. I know these are horrible things to say especially about ones own mother, but its all true. She fucked us both over royally and she can't expect more than what shes given us. As the saying goes: you reap what you sow. I decided not to hate her, or anybody for that matter, not even my former step father who raped me for 7 years because it takes alot of energy and time to hate someone and honestly, thats more than they deserve from me. I'm trying to be a normal healthy happy person, and I succeed most of the time, and all I can do is keep trying. As long as I've got my sister, my best friend, my babies and my weed I will be allright.:smokin: Goddess willing of course.