God, what's wrong with me??

[Ganj]

janis joplin expressed to me last night what i need in her song, "tell your mama." she says, "if you're a young cat, probably around seventeen years old and you start getting these thoughts and you don't know where they came from...i'll tell what you need. you need a sweet-talkin' mama, you need a sweet-lovin' mama." and she's right. you don't need a dead-end relationship like the ones you had. you need someone to need you, someone to want you, someone to talk to you. you're talking about running away to do some soul-searching because you want to find your life but it's right in front of you, man. you just aren't looking in the right places. i tell ya. if i had a sweet-lovin' mama, i wouldn't need to do any soul-searching because i'd have all i need and want in someone whose patient with me. we all overlook those things that are best for us because of the simple reason that we're not sure what is best for us but when you know, man...it'll be there waiting for you.

[trainwreck530]

you remind me alot of myself when i was a young kid. yea man, women will test you in one way or another. as far as you guys trying to be friends, that never works out unless you are both on the same page. there is good stress (intense fatuation) and bad stress. but either way, they are both stress. i think you might be a little too emotionally attached to the situation, ive been there. NOT HER, but the situation. girls just wanna have fun bro. im sure people have told you this but there are alot of really cool girls out there. you just have to have a positive mindset. seriously. every thought has its own frequency range, like frequencies attract. so basiclly if you think bad thoughts or are worried about bad things happening, that is what you are subconciously seeking out.
now, after you guys broke up you could have had things to your advantage if you had handled it real nonchalant. use words like 'move on' 'the best thing for the both of us.' even if you love her and it hurts more than anything. that makes it so you are in control of the situation. and if you can control a situation to where you are pacing things right and being the moderator, the other one will usually want more or realize how cool you are and want to be friends.
build up your own self dude, lift weights, swim, go for a hike. hang around with like minded individuals who like to have a good time. because i can tell you right now, its not worth it. even if it is right now. even if you love her. nothing like is worth the stars and the moon and most of all, your well being. your balance, your chi and good karma. oh yeah and try not to hate the game of anyone else, thats life man.
when i was in the same situation/high school relationship (2years) i didnt realize how absolutely unhealthy it was and damaging to my spiritual well being. you have a warm light inside of you that is waiting to be turned on. maybe by a friend, aqauntainence, etc. but just dont forget to take pride in yourself, you are the key to your heart YOU and no one else. a

well that was pretty long but i hope i helped you out a little bit!

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[Lankan Lion]

You're what, 19? Why are you looking for a serious, committed relationship? Go out to some clubs or parties, meet some girls and don't think long term. Just look for people that interest you. The reason why relationships don't tend to work for you probably has to do with the fact that you expect too much from other teenagers in terms of commitment.

Just a word of advice; this is not the time of your life to tie yourself down. Keep everything light and fun and don't think in terms longer than a year...hell, there aint nothing with a few one night stands every now and then.

There's a time in life when you start searching for a soulmate...this isn't it. Just chill out and have fun...thats what youths all about...the angst shit isn't mandatory