janis joplin expressed to me last night what i need in her song, "tell your mama." she says, "if you're a young cat, probably around seventeen years old and you start getting these thoughts and you don't know where they came from...i'll tell what you need. you need a sweet-talkin' mama, you need a sweet-lovin' mama." and she's right. you don't need a dead-end relationship like the ones you had. you need someone to need you, someone to want you, someone to talk to you. you're talking about running away to do some soul-searching because you want to find your life but it's right in front of you, man. you just aren't looking in the right places. i tell ya. if i had a sweet-lovin' mama, i wouldn't need to do any soul-searching because i'd have all i need and want in someone whose patient with me. we all overlook those things that are best for us because of the simple reason that we're not sure what is best for us but when you know, man...it'll be there waiting for you.