(Be prepared for a long rant...)

Well, it started on uhhh exactly June 26, 2006. Me and my only real serious girlfriend broke up after 10 months, my longest relationship. Not...hours after, she's already talking to two other guys.

At first...I was just extremely sad; up until about 4 months ago she refused to go away, she still called me when she wanted to talk or just when she was bored. I even told her, "Why do you fucking call me when you KNOW it just hurts me? Why don't you just leave me alone?!" Her response, "I don't know." My reply was, "Well, just fucking stop!" and I hung up on her. She called back the next day.

It kept on like this for about another 2 months before I just started being nothing but depressed around her and she finally said she couldn't take it anymore, that she "couldn't be my friend because I wasn't letting her" and refused to talk to ME anymore. That was 4 months ago.

I'm not sad anymore. I'm the type to hold grudges for a long time, and I already hate much more than I should. I just stopped being sad, and now I just am so fucking angry at women. I realized I've never had a single good relationship with any female in my life. I hate my mother, always hated her, she beat me when I was little, tried, and tries, to control every part of my life. Every girlfriend I've had has ALWAYS cheated on me. Every girl I know has cheated on their fucking boyfriend.

So, sadness has turned to anger and now when I'm around any girl I just get angry, so angry that I shake and my teeth chatter. I literally just get so full of rage. I know it's so wrong of me, but now I have this set view that EVERY girl is a slut, pardon my language. I just...I can't.stand.them. I'm not gay. Let me PLEASE say that, I'm not gay, I just can't stand women. I'm 19 years old, I've had sexual encounters before, I'm not some puppy eyed virgin, ya know? I've just realized that no relationship could ever be meaningful because NO ONE fucking takes them seriously anymore.

I can't even be around my female friends anymore because all I think about when I see them is all their stories about how they've cheated on their boyfriend, of which more than most of them have. My friend's girlfriends have all fucked them over, the ones that choose to keep them.

I HATE women, but I hate that I'm like this. I'm so fucked up in the head, and I know that, I KNOW that what I'm feeling is ignorant, stupid, and PATHETIC...but I can't change how I feel I don't think. Am I just one of those people that is going to be forced into monk hood because I can't deal with the real world?? I'm so LOST...sorry guys...
Gothen Reviewed by Gothen on . God, what's wrong with me?? (Be prepared for a long rant...) Well, it started on uhhh exactly June 26, 2006. Me and my only real serious girlfriend broke up after 10 months, my longest relationship. Not...hours after, she's already talking to two other guys. At first...I was just extremely sad; up until about 4 months ago she refused to go away, she still called me when she wanted to talk or just when she was bored. I even told her, "Why do you fucking call me when you KNOW it just hurts me? Why don't you just Rating: 5