Crudemood, i think i understand you to an extent... reading your post, it seems like i may have suffered some mild emotional abuse when child also, and it may have damaged some parts of my emotions... so i think i know a bit how you feels like.
I wish i had any words of comfort for you... i only can say im glad that you realized what is your problem, cause, as you said, its the first step to solve it.
BTW, there is nothing wrong with hating your father (or anybody else who did some harm to you). Even cause when you overcome the problems caused by it, your hate will fade away.
Best wishes for you!
Coelho Reviewed by Coelho on . Emotional Abuse Characteristics of Emotionally Abused People * Can only guess at what healthy behavior is. The Main question: Do you feel that something is wrong with your relationship, but you don't know how to describe it? * Have trouble completing things * Lie when they don't need to. Lying might have been a survival tactic in the home. (She explains that perhaps the child learned from parents who lied to cover up problems or avoid conflict. Or simply to avoid harsh punishment, or to Rating: 5