Pshychoactive420, if what you feel because you reached the knowledge of the real nature of the things is so bad as i think it is, its my duty make the best for helping you... im passing through the same things, but in a much smaller scale. I didnt had any illumination, but, slowly, im realizing the emptyness of the everyday things, the void of everything, and its very sad. Its like everything you loved and liked is fading, like images of a dream which fades into nothing as you awakes... if is that what you feel, than i understand you... and if i can do anything for help it, i hope to do. I didnt thought my posts here would help you so much... anyway, it makes me happy to know that i am being of some help to you. Soon you will discover (if you dont know already) that helping other people is one of the shortest ways to happiness... its a paradox... as more happiness you give to other people, more happiness is left with you... So, the best way for enjoying the gift you recieved is to share it with another people... you did see the light... now, shine this light upon another people, help them, and you will be very well rewarded...
Best wishes to you, my brother! :thumbsup:

PS. Stonger psychedelics really are a door to the "other world"... if i dont be enlightened by chance, i hope some day use some of them, and reach the light.