Quote Originally Posted by Psychoactive420
I need someone to talk to...Maybe someone Buddhist, Maybe the way I could tell my parents is by writing a letter to them. I'm pretty sure my parents wouldn't understand and be very confused with me. I'm not even that close with my parents. I don't ever really talk to them unless I need something and now looking at my relationships with each of my family members it brings me a sadness....I don't know if I can live like this I really need help....I need help.......now im crying.......my life is changing so fast and I feel so lost, alone and confused....
There is a mantra, a chant that I like to repeat when I find myself in situations such as that. It helps calm me, and makes things seem less hectic when everything around me seems to be changing or falling apart...

I have arrived, I am home
In the here, In the now
I am solid, I am free
In the ultimate, I dwell

Since you have such an interest in Buddhism, you may want to take some time to study, or at least look into the Four Noble Truths. They, especially in times such as this for you, will be of great help.

1. Life means suffering.

2. The origin of suffering is attachment.

3. The cessation of suffering is attainable.

4. The path to the cessation of suffering.
I suggest taking the time to try to find your own understanding of what these truths mean, and then, after you have figured out what they mean to you, take the time to learn about them online or whatnot. See how your interpretation compares with what others say.

As a note, the fourth noble truth is a link to The Noble Eightfold Path.

1. Right View
2. Right Intention
3. Right Speech
4. Right Action
5. Right Livelihood
6. Right Effort
7. Right Mindfullness
8. Right Concentration
If you get time, try to consider the Eightfold path as well, find your meaning in it as well.

If you believe that the experience you felt was somethign related to Buddhism, then take the time to try to understand the religion and what it teaches.

Dont take little quotes and look at them and see if they work for you. Thats the same as taking the lettuce from a sandwich, and because you like the lettuce, assuming that you like the entire sandwich. Buddhism is a religion that has tenants that are simple and understandable as a standalone, but the real meaning behind everything is interlaced with many other things. The kind of situation where you can "understand" something, but not truely understand something.

Before you is a religion that is simple, yet complex, with lessons that are simple, yet very complex. Take the time to learn about it, and even if its not for you, even if it gives you no answers and doesnt help you at all with what you were looking for help with... you will be more learned, and likely better off for the experience.

If you have any questions, feel free to ask. I am by no means an expert on the religion, but I can answer what I can, and find answers for you on anything else. :jointsmile: