wow Coelho you do have a way with words man...after reading what you wrote and writing it down in my journal I already feel at a dream like state of peace I haven't felt before.... its a different feeling - calm and relaxing now. I kind of feel excited and eager to know more about Nirvana and Buddhism... I am in sort of a state of peace I have been waiting a long time to feel.... It might seem like im being over dramatic but this feeling is real... and like something I haven't felt before... but this is a good feeling now