Quote Originally Posted by Psychoactive420
Zach - I am curious about the feeling of Nirvana but in order to live my life I need to put the feeling out of my mind. I think it is necessary to live a normal life. I'm guessing that time will put it out of my mind and I will move on and continue to live life out. MAYBE people have realized that Nirvana would come when they die so they created religion to live out normal lives.
Man... i think if you actually forget this experience and live a "normal life", you will be wasting the greatest gift you ever had in your whole life.
Have you stopped to think how much millions of people spends hours, days, and even their entire lifes meditating, praying, or whatever, for trying to reach the so-called nirvana?
And you had the vision of it absolutely free, with any effort from your part. It would be like winning the big prize in the lottery...

We all will die. Everybody should be aware of it. Everybody should remember it all the time. We dont know when, so it may be right now. You said that it makes you depressed. Well, you and everybody else are gonna die regardless their feelings.
So, use the memory of death for your benefit. Do the things you would like to, as soon as possible. Tell everybody you like how much you like them. Enjoy the simple pleasures of the life. Dont worry about the future. Dont worry about unimportant things. You are alive, and thats the ONLY thing that really matters.

Im one of the ones who spends their time seeking the nirvana, so if i had an experience like yours, it would change completly my life. I know (rationally) that nothing in this wolrd really matters, but dont have the "feeling", i didnt experienced what you did, and thats why my life is still pretty "normal". I worry, i suffer, i dispair, like any "normal" people. I know that all suffering and pain can be transcended, but im not able for doing it myself, and fear i wont while i dont have a great life-changing experience like yours.

So, i would suggest you to dont try to forget your experience, even because you wont. You know that it was deeper than the undertanding, deeper than the reason. Your mind just cant erase this. You can bury it, deny it, as many people does when have "traumatic" experiences, but its no good, because this buried things always come back, sooner or later. Any psychanalist will agree with me here.
So, my advice is: use your experience for your own growth, mental, and spiritual. You dont need to believe in God for being a spiritual peson. Read about religions. Buddhism is a very good one for start with, as you experienced the ultimate goal of it.

And, please, dont acomodate yourself with the "normal life". The "normal life" is for the common people, the not-enlightened ones, the ones that think they will never die, and make all the mistakes caused by it. You was enlightened. So, again, dont waste it. It is the greatest gift any human may recieve.

"and ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free." John 8:32

PS. One last note. Most western philosophy wont help you. Most western philosophers are too much down-to-earth to even concieve what you experienced, so their views about life and death are helplessly wrong. If you find any answers, it will be in religious texts, oriental philosophies, or psychedelic literature. Anyway, good luck! :thumbsup: