I think I may be becoming insane.... (spiritual discussion)

[Psychoactive420]

OK I think this is really serious and I don't know if anyone has gone through this or not. But here it goes -

It all started 2 days ago - I went to sleep one night having no idea I was about to embark on by far the most powerful / strangest dreams I have ever had in my entire life. I went to sleep around 1AM. - I found myself sitting in the backseat of the truck with about 4 other people in the car maybe 3- I'm pretty sure I knew all of them but I don't remember exactly who they were. It was night time and we were sitting in the parking lot of where I worked slowly driving out. There were plenty of people all around walking to their cars I guess like something just let out - everyone was probably around my age (teens) - It looked like a concert just got out or something and everyone was going to their cars... anyways we are slowly inching out of the parking lot and something happens- A young man with long brown hair darts out in front of our slow moving truck and stops, I notice he has a gun he shoots twice maybe hitting other people in the car then I see his eyes look directly at mine This all happens so fast I dont even know its happening really until it's too late once he looks directly at my eyes I had never been so scared in my life, he shoots all I hear is the shot ring in my ears. everything goes black - I then experience the strangest feeling I have ever felt in my entire life the feeling after you die... This feeling is not even a feeling - there is nothing - It is the "feeling" you feel before you are born. Normally I could not even begin to comprehend this feeling in my conscious normal state of mind, but I did in the dream. It was horrible - I then come to a strange realization of my life... -" I had never really believed in my own death" I never stopped to think - "hey I will die someday and there might not be a conscious state of mind after death" I felt bad about all the people I would leave behind and never see again... it was as if mankind was nothing but the product of matter, energy, and time throughout the universe... I woke up around 5:50AM and slowly came back to reality. I have no idea what caused a crazy dream like this all of the sudden. The next morning before going to school I couldn't stop thinking about death and afterlife and If there was an afterlife and what dying would feel like. I felt extremely depressed the next day and at some points throughout the day feareed that I would not forget the feeling and that I am becoming mentally insane.... I feel depressed and strange over this feeling.... I don't know how to get rid of it. But I hope It goes away. I also tried to research a little on religion. I myself WANT to believe in god and after life but theres apart of me that won't let me believe in it because it doesn't seem real I guess... should I try to pray more? I really want to make myself believe in god and in an afterlife but I dont know how. Should I seek help on this? Please guys tell me what you think - sorry for all of my rambling on.

Psychoactive420 Reviewed by Psychoactive420 on 09-12-2007. I think I may be becoming insane.... (spiritual discussion) :(OK I think this is really serious and I don't know if anyone has gone through this or not. But here it goes - It all started 2 days ago - I went to sleep one night having no idea I was about to embark on by far the most powerful / strangest dreams I have ever had in my entire life. I went to sleep around 1AM. - I found myself sitting in the backseat of the truck with about 4 other people in the car maybe 3- I'm pretty sure I knew all of them but I don't remember exactly who they were. It Rating: 5

[Psychoactive420]

BTW I didn't smoke before this dream or anything - actually I haven't smoked since like the middle of august and this dream happened on the night of September 9th

[LaZ]

Wow thats a pretty lucid dream.

[Jake420]

You have found complete nirvana

[Psychoactive420]

Maybe ^^^ But That feeling that I had been experiencing in the dream keeps coming back to me in waves.... It hit me in the middle of class so intensely today I almost cried for some reason....Does that sound like I have a problem? I took the time to write the dream down and all my feelings in a journal... I feel like im becoming some kind of freak..... and now when I walk down the halls in school and see all the people I feel alone like Im in my own kind of realm and the feeling is almost dreamlike in a way in the fact that I know no one has experienced what I did - (and Im not some sort of goth emo kid which im sure your picturing in your mind right now) I'm a normal guy like everyone, I have friends, a job play a sport and am into normal stuff... I just now am feeling I am becoming an outcast in a way..

[Jake420]

you should research the theory of parrallel universes its a very interesting concept

read the book DMT: the spirit molecule by rick strassman

I have had dreams that felt more real then life and dreams that have changed me

I have had feelings in real life that i knew were related to a dream

there is more to this world then what you see and feel, you just have to find that

[Jake420]

all the feeling of being alone is just a mind trick man that dream effected your life for sure and because you dont understand it, it is effecting it in a bad way, when you understand it and accept it, it won't seem like a bad thing

This is all IMO so idk if you understand

just trying to help

jake

[Adjacent]

For me, being an atheist and not believing in an afterlife makes life that much more fulfilling. I mean, think of the time we have here on this earth, and think about how much there is to experience!

When I think about death, I get restless, I want to do things, to meet people, experience all that life has to offer before my short time here is over.

I think maybe your problem is that you feel like there is so much left to do, but when you consider that you could die tomorrow, you get frustrated and just go on a downward spiral. What you need to do is to realize that YES, you are going to be dead and gone forever some day, and so you need to experience as much joy in life as you can.

When you wake up every morning be glad that today is another day and that you can do anything you want. Be with friends, be with family, find someone and something that makes you the happiest.



YOU'RE ALIVE! And life is great. Now go do something awesome.

[Psychoactive420]

you should research the theory of parrallel universes its a very interesting concept

read the book DMT: the spirit molecule by rick strassman

I have had dreams that felt more real then life and dreams that have changed me

I have had feelings in real life that i knew were related to a dream

there is more to this world then what you see and feel, you just have to find that

Thank you - I needed that. It's nice to know that someone else in this world has an idea of what I experienced - I feel as If the afterlife if there is one, is too complex and that mankind can no way comprehend the feeling because it is so beyond out intellect.

[Psychoactive420]

For me, being an atheist and not believing in an afterlife makes life that much more fulfilling. I mean, think of the time we have here on this earth, and think about how much there is to experience!

When I think about death, I get restless, I want to do things, to meet people, experience all that life has to offer before my short time here is over.

I think maybe your problem is that you feel like there is so much left to do, but when you consider that you could die tomorrow, you get frustrated and just go on a downward spiral. What you need to do is to realize that YES, you are going to be dead and gone forever some day, and so you need to experience as much joy in life as you can.

When you wake up every morning be glad that today is another day and that you can do anything you want. Be with friends, be with family, find someone and something that makes you the happiest.



YOU'RE ALIVE! And life is great. Now go do something awesome.

Yes your right I did feel what you just explained... I have no Idea how you knew that.... something in me wants to believe in religion though.... I feel so depressed if there was no afterlife for some reason... maybe it's a stage of denial?