So i'm not alone... nice to know there are others out there trying to reconnect at a later age as well. Growing looks like the way to go but can't do it at the house right now, unfortunately, so am thinking of trying something on public land... good woods around here. Guess I'll have to poke my nose in at the growers threads to see if that is feasable and to get some advice. Man I am getting impatient... just wanna get stoned again!