exactly, well reality is reality. you can believe that the masses are just sheep being hearded around, that society has been created to keep people in their boxes, to make sure they don't ever learn the truth. or you could accept reality is the world, it is towns, people, work and life. that it is what you make it. my reality may differe from you. my brain may be different from yours. but there are certain truths that remain the same. we live we die. that is reality. what you do with that time is i guess your choice. you could spend a life time debating it, or just get on with it.

as for this guy, it sounds like me when i was wiggin out. i thought i was being set up as a coke dealer and that the fuzz where watchin me. i thought people i met where undercover agents. i was just unhinged. when your in a state of anxiety and paranoia you make connections which normal people don't make and that would seem illogical. but as your brain is telling you them you believe they are real.

the likely hood is the reason that the people where in the same rooms is because they where the rooms they play in. ie their communites. the reason they use the same taunts is because they dont have a massive resource of them. you say tid bits or phone conversations, well the likely hood is that they where just saying the same things. like collocalisms or using the same phrases. think about it how many conversations must sound alike. it is just because you are in hightened sense of anxiety/ paranoia.

the reason you are not getting high is because you aren't able to. when you get high you dissolve your ego and release other parts of your brain and it is likely that it is you ego and super ego that are in overdrive to keep substatiating your own paranioas.

the fact that your computer kept crashing was probably due to virus's and malware that are quite common when playin online. the fact that no forensic evidence was found to use suggests that no one tampered with your machine. but to you it must seem like they are just very clever.

i can pretty much 99% assure you that you are not being followed and your in a deep state of paranoia and axienty. you say you dont see your friends and that can only make things worse.

dude, please listen to the people on here, go see someone. talk to them and let them help you. i know what its like to life in this state of paranoia and anxiety but honestly it gets better, you just need a bit of help. theres nothing to be ashmed about. it happens to the best of us.

peace

snow