I feel like a horrible person...im so bummed

[rebgirl420]

no need to be rude :thumbsup:

[L Rag]

Blaze up and then think about it?

[rebgirl420]

I have been high and thinking about it. Ive actually been getting quite stoned every day since Labor Day. I had quit for a week before and it just so happened when we went over John's friends house his friend (not the one I like) smoked me up and all of us, Johns 2 friends and his friend who I likes girlfriend was there, we all played madden and guitar hero. It was a blast actually.

[L Rag]

Mint! Whats guitar hero like? Yeah man, its awesome going for a week without bud (I think i've done it..Once since I started? Haha), you just get an intense as buzz with your low tolerance aye..Primo

[Hawkeye]

I was not the one being rude my dear. You posted asking for what people's thoughts were on this subject, but when I offered mine to you, you judged them as wrong.

[rebgirl420]

Yeah its actually really fun! Im on medium but John's friend had all the levels beat and all these songs downloaded and everything unlocked so when everyone played it was super awsome. Everyone was drinking there except for John and I. And I was high. So that prooves its actually pretty easy haha.

[Mr. Bubbles]

You strike me as an attention seeker, Reb. Working out is all fine, no problem there. The reasons and motivation behind it don't seem to well placed, however. How would you feel if John were trying to look good for other women? How would you feel if he were trying to get your friends into him? Just doesn't seem right to me.

[ScaryMissMary]

Im all for working out but you are doing it for the wrong reasons, babe.

Also, how would you feel is you found out a girl your acquiantences with is secretly trying to get John attracted to her? Im sure it would bug the shit out of you, hell it would bug any woman. Now you know that YOU would never do anything, how do you know that guy won't? Why would you want to put that poor girl in that position? Im not bashing you, reb I just want to give some perspective.

[rebgirl420]

^ very true, see John knows I like him and he kinda jokes with me about it. He doesn't seem to mind much. he knows I wouldn't act on it.

But yeah I think im gonna just push it into the corners of my mind and try not to think about it, ya know. maybe the feelings will go away on their own if I just keep myself busy.

Oh well guys and gals. Thanks for the help. I think I have my resolution now

[WeedyBoyWonder]

I think you're just the average female. Get what you want, then figure you want something different, or more, or both.
I'm sure you will figure out what to do, as you said it's not like you're going to do anything. If you actually want this guy more than your own boyfriend, then IMO I would say give your boyfriend a break and tell him. I'd HATE to be with someone who wanted someone else, it's emotional cheating.