So lately ive been kinda obsessed about losing weight and working out. But im doing it for the wrong reasons. Lately all I can think about is John's friends. I kinda have a thing for one of them and I am in no way going to act on it BUT I want them, especially the one to think im sexy. That is, alot hotter than his girlfriend. I have no idea why im acting like this but its all I can think about. Im even going to join the freaking gym next week so I can loose weight and firm up. I just want his friends to think im hot. I know this is shady and horrible but I feel this need to be better than the other girls there. Even if I wont act on it. Ugh.

What do you girls and guys think? Am I going insane? Is this bad motivatation? I think it is but I think its going to work. This may just be the thing that keeps me on the right track. To lose more weight and improve myself.

And please, no mean comments. Its not what I need right now. I think im going manic (Im bipolar) and my mind keeps on racing about this. Nothing is helping. And I can't tell John so I just needed someone to rant to.
rebgirl420 Reviewed by rebgirl420 on . I feel like a horrible person...im so bummed So lately ive been kinda obsessed about losing weight and working out. But im doing it for the wrong reasons. Lately all I can think about is John's friends. I kinda have a thing for one of them and I am in no way going to act on it BUT I want them, especially the one to think im sexy. That is, alot hotter than his girlfriend. I have no idea why im acting like this but its all I can think about. Im even going to join the freaking gym next week so I can loose weight and firm up. I just want his Rating: 5