i don't care how long you've studied addiction and where you studied it... NOBODY HAS CONTROL OVER COCAINE. that drug controls you, no matter who you are i dont care. it's a nasty drug and a nasty habit. i was a coke addict, i know there is nothing i can say to make you change your mind about it.. when you want to stop, hopefully you will be able to.
You may not have been able to control it, others may not be able to control it but there are certainly people who can. Me and some friends used to smoke crack, I would occassionally join in and found the experience to be over rated. The urge to repeat the experience time and time again was by no means overwhelming.
Cocaine addiction may actually have something to do with genetics:
http://www.hon.ch/News/HSN/520444.html
http://www.eurekalert.org/pub_releas...-gmb072904.php