How I learned to stop worrying and love the bud

[lemonhead]

Two years ago I was in my first "real" relationship, the kind where you move in together with the hope of living happily ever after, maybe adopt some pets and talk about marriage and all that wishful junk. I'd smoked a good bit in my day, was one of those stoner chicks in high school but made the mistake of moving on to harder things. By the time I fell in love and tried to build a life with this guy, I'd stopped traveling, kicked the drugs, and was sober on the whole (I don't think bud or drink count). I thought it was nice to meet someone that I could smoke out with, cook some dinner, cozy up in bed with, etc etc.

Man, was I wrong. This guy almost put me off of weed forever. At first it seemed pretty harmless...we'd go halves on whatever we bought, and his friends from work would come over and smoke with us, watch some telly, have fun. Pretty soon, though, I was the one buying all the time. I'm not stingy with my weed, but after a while it got annoying to see him blow all of his money going to bars and clubs, and then come back and take all of my stash to go smoke with some mysterious "friends." It got to the point where I stopped smoking entirely because I hated seeing what he was like when he smoked. Maybe it happens in all relationships, but eventually I got annoyed at hearing him tell the same Ali-G related jokes over and over, got tired of him being lazy and selfish in the sack, of him sneaking money out of my wallet in the mornings because he'd already spend his paycheck.

Not smoking weed had a bad effect on me, too--I became one of those crazy, hysterical girls, always calling to ask him where he was, demanding that he stop going out every night and spend time with me, telling him to stop getting high and get his life together. I hated being that girl. Weed always made me chill out and have perspective, but without it, I couldn't deal with him without getting pissed off and bitchy. After a year, he was getting pretty abusive and I caught him cheating a couple times and left him. I didn't think about him much after that, but one of the worst things I got out of that relationship was that I couldn't stand weed for the longest time. I just kept associating it with those bad times, and I assumed that all potheads were secretly cheating, wife-beating mofos who'd only date me to get smoked out all the time.

I got over it around a year ago (thank god), because of a friend of mine who insisted that it was all in my head. I've dated here and there, whenever I found a decent guy to smoke and chill out with, and it's been pretty good so far. I've pared it down to about an 8th a week now, just enough to be functional for work and school, but I definitely enjoy their company better when I'm high.

Yeah, anyway...hah, this was so pointless. sorry.

lemonhead Reviewed by lemonhead on 09-03-2007. How I learned to stop worrying and love the bud Two years ago I was in my first "real" relationship, the kind where you move in together with the hope of living happily ever after, maybe adopt some pets and talk about marriage and all that wishful junk. I'd smoked a good bit in my day, was one of those stoner chicks in high school but made the mistake of moving on to harder things. By the time I fell in love and tried to build a life with this guy, I'd stopped traveling, kicked the drugs, and was sober on the whole (I don't think bud or Rating: 5

[Veratyr Star]

Not smoking weed had a bad effect on me, too--I became one of those crazy, hysterical girls, always calling to ask him where he was, demanding that he stop going out every night and spend time with me, telling him to stop getting high and get his life together. I hated being that girl. Weed always made me chill out and have perspective, but without it, I couldn't deal with him without getting pissed off and bitchy.

Not smoking weed didnt' make you go hysterical and clingy, it was the way HE was treating you. Weed had nothing to do with it. He wasn't treating you right and the way you were use to being treated when things first started out with you two.

It's good you've moved on cause he doesn't sound like the dude for you.

But keep on toking and chillin with friends. The right toker will come along soon. :thumbsup:

[lemonhead]

fer sure. thanks.
weed does help me get through PMS without ripping somebody's balls off, though.

[Spoken Word]

your post was far from pointless... when someone takes the time to type all those letters it's everything but pointless..

this being your first post and all and having so much meaning.

i can't say much since you don't mention any questions.

keep up that attitude... it seems you have found positivity in cannabis and that's what we(on this here wonderful site)are all about........i think

welcome to the site.

even if you don't stay and reply to some of the random thoughts---like yours--- from all the smart people on this site, read and learn.

[Veratyr Star]

Haha well thats good

Weed is wonderful. Welcome to the forums btw :jointsmile:

[RhinoGrowUK]

fer sure. thanks.
weed does help me get through PMS without ripping somebody's balls off, though.

We can only thank god for that then ,

[lemonhead]

thanks dudes.
i never got into the whole internet forums thing, but i stumbled into this last night and thought it was pretty cool. nothing like knowing that other people are doing the same thing you are at 1 in the morn.

[Spoken Word]

guess what.. it's 4 in the morning where i am.

and if you saw me in "real life", I don't think you would ever believe I'd be on a "internet forum thing" at 4 in the morning. lol

once you get past the whole "internet" part you realize all you are doing is "interacting" with other people.

[Veratyr Star]

I'm on here till around 6 a.m. usually just cause I have a hard time sleeping if I'm not high and my town is DDDDRRRRYYYYYYY

It's a fun site to chill on even if you don't post. Just lurk around and read.

[lemonhead]

sheesh. that blows. i'd probably be madly scraping at my pipe.

i thought about lurking, but people seem less scary-angry here than usual (...i wonder why) so it wasn't too traumatizing to post