Thanks for your suggestions everybody , I will definately take them to heart.

I haven't smoked any weed in the past month because it always made me feel terrible. But, if I keep it to only once a week it feels great again, I just didn't have the willpower to say "no" 6 days out of the week. But last night my mom's friend, being the nice lady that she is, saw how much stress I was under and surprised me with an a free ounce of shake. I thought that was pretty cool of her! I had some with my little brother last night and we totally chilled out after another big fight, and even this morning I woke up well rested and anxiety free.

Weed really is a wonderful substance, I just have to keep it to 1x a week maximum for it to stay that way. It'll be like my emergency freak-out fix when I need to decompress . I definately feel that I can do it now that I've spent a month learning to live without it.


Anyway I'm sure none of you care about my blathering, but as BluntMasterBabe said it helps to write in a journal and this is kinda like that:jointsmile:. I feel much better, at least for now, and I think a once-a-week decompression will really help keep me sane.